Psalm 139

Lord, when you look at me, you search me, you see who I am.
It is all revealed, the good, the bad and the mediocre.
You see all the stuff I do... the routines of my day,
and you know my thoughts before I think them.
You know me inside and out.
The things I say are no surprise to you - you saw them coming.
You surround me, and you have touched my life.
I really don't understand that, don't even know what it really means, but I believe it.

I cannot escape the Comforter, so I can't run away from you.
I can't go high enough to escape your knowledge of me, or low enough, either.
Running east or west will not get me away from you.
Where ever I run, you will see me, and it is impossible to get beyond the reach of your protection and guidance.
Sometimes I think darkness will cover me
( and mercifully hide who I really am ),
but it is all the same to you.
You see as piercingly in the dark as you do in the light.

You made my very soul.
You handcrafted me in my mother's womb.
I must praise you for that.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Your works are amazing, a fact that cannot be denied.

Who I am was no secret to you when you made me.
You made no mistakes as you crafted me.
You had a vision of who I would be, and your work was a success.
Before I began to live and breath you knew who I would be and planned my days.
You wrote the story of my life.

Lord, it is hard for me to understand the way you think.
You care for me in a way that is beyond true comprehension- I could never figure it out.
Sometimes I think your love for me is too good to be true- like a dream
but when I wake up, You are still there...

Because you are the one who really knows me,
search me, and help me to know my own heart.
Don't spare me.
Show me the remedy for my anxious thoughts.
(Why do I have them when you are who you are?)
Show me my sins so that I can be closer to you.
Show me how to live for eternity.